Darkness

My weekend was very, very, very interesting.

The last post I posted, I liked reading what Mr. K., and Ali said. I was a little disappointed that no one else said anything. Oh well.
It seems like darkness is taking over, almost ever thing. I thought this would be the best way to show you the darkness gets boring if everything is like that.

So tell me what you think about this new layout. I'll probably change it tomorrow or sometime this week but I'm not sure.
So what do you think?

In my mind today

Have you ever felt like you are wearing a mask?
Nobody knows the real you
Nobody know what you have been through
Nobody can tell who you really are

They see what they want
Even if it's not the truth

You are lying in pain
It’s all around

You say some but nobody hears
You whisper is a scream but nobody can tell
People don't really care they just pretend to care

You call them up to talk but they need to go
They don't take time unless it's for them

They ignore you unless they need something
They leave you alone because they you're mad
Even when you really want to talk
They forget you're there even if you say hello

You hurt yourself to feel good
You take pills to escape reality

You fake a smile so no one can see
You let no one in
Even through you are hurting
Inside

The mask hides your heart
So else can hurt it

I know everyone is tried of this hate my life poems but I what I feel, what I see, and in some case I write about me. Yeah this is a little bit of what I been felling lately, if you have a problem then don't read it. I've been trying to write some happy ones but it's hard, because I write about people gong around me and because it's hard to write down those feelings. I write best when I feel motivated and when I feel like it and I a lot of times I don't feel like write when I'm happy.

I hope all of you have a good weekend.

rain

Raining nights

Water on the ground
That I’m splashing
Around

A hot summer day
Turns to a cold
Breezing night

We run outside to
Feel the air

You and me
This is going to
Be fun

Let’s see who
Can run faster
In cold

Come in soaked
Laughing about
What we just did

Full of energy
Powered by the rain

Let’s go again
It’ll be fun
So come on

What do you think?

Who cares

Yell for help
Turns to a whisper
Of silence

They can’t hear you
Or so it goes

You push people
Away
Cause they
Push you


You have know real
Friends
Just people
Who pretend to care

People who don’t
Know the real you

People who can’t hear
People who can’t see you

Forget them and
Move on

Everyone needs someone
Who cares

Something old but new.

Today

You don’t know me

I don’t know you
So let’s stop pretending

If you want to say something
Just say it
If not then leave

Leave me alone
I don’t want
Your lies

You know nothing
About me
Not like before

We told each other
Everything but then
We grew apart

I don’t want to
Know you
I don’t want to talk
To you anymore


You’re not my friend
You don’t know me

What happened to us?

I have nothing else to say right now.

Talk to ya later.

Crazy me

Crazy

Fake a smile
Strike a pose

Write a letter
Sing a song

Talk to someone
You don’t know

Step up
Step down
Turn around

Do something you
Haven’t done before

Do something fun

Spend time with friends

Hang upside
Down

Take a chance
Dance
Do something you want

Do something new

Something new and I think happy.

My weekend

My weekend was good.
On Friday I saw Becoming Jane, it was ok. After the first hour it gets a little boring. You have to be a Jane Austin fan to really enjoy it, to understand it, and to sit through it without falling asleep. But that is just my opinion. Make your own and watch it.
Saturday I mostly slept. And then I cleaned.
Sunday played with Danyelle and did some yard work for a friend of mine.
Oh and I found the pair of jeans that I lost like two weeks ago. And now I have a more organized and clean room. So that was my weekend. How was yours?

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Cries to the moon

Here's something I just wrote. It sorta goes a long with a poem Ali wrote yesterday.

cries to the moon

I don’t need you pity
I don’t need your guilt
I needed your friendship

I wanted your friendship
But you went and threw it away

You wanted my friendship
But I chased you away

Now I have no one
Close to me

I have no one
To talk to
No one who cares
Anyway

No one knows me
No one can
Understand

I have no one
Who understands
What is going on right now

No one who will listen
To the cries


No one who is there
For me

That's all I have to say right now.

who are you???

I don’t know
What to do anymore

Who are you?
What happened
To my best friend

What happened to you?
I don’t know you
Anymore

You used to tell
Me everything
Now you don’t
Even say hi

What happened?
We were totally
Different but
We got along

We grew up and
We grew a part

And now we
Can’t seem to
Make time to talk

We grew apart
What can I say?
Things happen
Like this everyday

So why can’t
I just let go
Let be

You chose them
Over me so
Why can’t I
Let go

So what do you think?

The name

Yeah I changed the name again and I'll most likely change it again..well, if I get tired of the name.

I got to paint last night, that was fun. I was painting till midnight but it was really fun. I like painting, I like art.
I'm trying to work but I'm having a little trouble with that.
I hope you like the name if not oh well. I think I'm going to keep this name for a while at least.
I can't really think of anything else so..... See Ya.

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between us

How many chances does
A person get

Is it one, two or more
Than that

How many times can
I change my answer

A new chance,
A new change

Are you the same
Person you were years ago

Are we the same
Have things change between us
Compared to years before

We’ve grown apart
And there’s no way to
Change it

We can’t go back now
It’s too late
Our relationship change

Now the question is…

Is it good or bad?

This time I don’t
Have an answer
And it’s killing me


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whatever

My summer. It was ok, I met some new people, and was able to talk to some of the people I lost touch of. So that was nice, I also got some reading in so that was good.

I'm like so board right now. There's a lot of new people here. I'm sorta happy that's it's not summer anymore but same time want it to be summer. I still miss some people but there are other that I don't miss that much.
I am still really board.
I can't wait till winter.

Talk to ya later.
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books of the summer

Friends to Die For, By: Jane Sughrue Giberga

Crissy is A-List New Yorker. She has to deal with a crazy family, that includes a disabled brother and parents that stress on her about college. She is popular, and has to deal with all the drama associated with all that. Her best bud, Markie, has to move away because of what happened at an out of control party. Markie’s jewels were stolen at the party, so she is stressing out, and Crissy’s boyfriend, Brian, gets injured and a girl is found dead on the subway, after attending the party. Because of that party, Crissy, Markie, and Francesca all get there world’s turned upside down. Francesca puts on a disappearing act, right after her boyfriend is arrested. The press then comes to the school about what all happened at the party. Weeks later the press comes to Crissy after her family gets an interview. Needless to say, her life is pretty stressful.




The True Meaning of Cleavage By: Mariah Fredericks

Sari and Jess are best friends, or at least they were till 9th grade. Sari becomes more popular and Jess is exactly the opposite. Soon Sari begins to forget about the friendship she had with Jess. Sari falls for David Cole who is dating Thea. Together those two seniors are the perfect couple. They have been together for 4 years at Eldridge Alternative School. But still Sari starts sneaking around with David. Jess is focusing on making her drawing better, while Sari is more focused on her social status. Jess has to deal with the stress that High School brings, and she has very few friends to help with that. Sari on the other hand has a lot of friends. Jess tries to stay out of the way of the Prada Mafia. She is also trying to get Sari back as a friend, but is instead pushing her further away. Now they separately, have to find out where they really belong.


What Mr. Mattero Did

By Prisclla Cummings





Claire, Suzanne, and Jenna are best friends, at Oakdale Middle school who becomes victims of abuse by their music teacher Mr. Mattero. But what happened after the told the principal was nothing like they expected. They thought they would get out of his class, not cause trouble.

But when another girl befriends Claire and she tells Claire a secret about her stepfather. Claire decides to tell the truth. Did Mr. Mattero do what she said? Did he do something worse? Did he do anything at all?


Those are the books I read over the summer. They were very interesting. I recommend reading them, they were very good.

Have a good day.

My summer is going good. I know it's the seond day of summer but hey Yesterday was really good. Well for the most part. If one you is actually on Blogger, I hope I see you at Betterfest. I will most likely be going on Friday and Sunday. I have a lot of stuff planned for Saturday so I won't be going then. That's all I'm going to say. Have a Great Summer.

Today is going by ok-ish. I have finals at 1:35 till about three something. But I get to see some old friends of mine, so that's good.

Tomorrow is the last day of the school year.
I don't know if I'm looking forward to summer or not. I was but now I'm not so sure.

I'm sick of feeling all mad and angry all the time. The worst part is I don’t know what is causing it. And I’m sick of fighting with people who are my friends. I’m sick of it. I’m tired of looking mad or feel upset over small things.

How is your day going so far?
That’s all I have to say for right now anyway.

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Friday

It's Friday.
School is going to be out soon. I can't wait, but at the same time I can. Have a fun weekend.
I don't have much plans for this weekend. I 'm going to get some work done.
Wow. This school year has gone by fast.
My school year has been good, for the most part anyway. One thing I didn't like was fighting with friends. But besides that it has been really good.

How has the school year been for you?
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today

Wednesday was weird and I was just completely out of it. I don't know why. After lunch I got a big headache and I couldn't think. I hate that feeling.
Today I am a little better, I think. I’m still sorta out of it. I am so tired I went to bed at nine some thing and then woke up at three forty-five. I now I’m extremely tired. I can’t even think or focus.
I have no idea what I'm doing this weekend. I think I'm just going to work on some stuff. And go to La Crosse.
The poem I posted was about yesterday.
Wow. 1oo posts. I find that amzing I really thing it would have taken me shorter time but oh well. One hundred posts.
I got to go I am going to try to work on something. Please leave a comment.

One of those days

One of those days
I don’t know
What to do
What to say

It has been one
Of those days
I don’t what’s
Going on

I have nothing
In my mind

It has been
One of those
Days

Where I'm like
A blonde

I don’t know
Why but it
Just one of those
Days

Where I act so
Crazy it’s like
I don’t have a
Brain

Everyone has one
Everyone knows
How it feels

It’s just been
One of those days

I hope y'all like it.
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My weekend

I had a wonderful weekend.


Friday I went to the gradation and they to the party, which was fun. I played two games, one with Jessi, and Amanda and t hen one with Alison, Jessi, and Chloe. I talked with Tamara for a little bit. At about ten o'clock, we left.
I stayed up till about 12:30 and then woke up at 8:30.
Saturday I woke up and did some cleaning, then Saturday night I played Life, and made S'mores. Went to bed at one the morning.
Sunday woke up at seven something and then got ready to go, left and then came back around twelve, had some lunch then left again. Came back 45minutes later then at two I took Danyelle for bike ride then we went to school that we live by. Played for I think a half an hour. Went home, then my dad comes, we went to Wal Mart got stuff for dinner. We went back to my mom's, started the grill, then at seven we started the movie and at dinner. We watched "Night at the Museum." Later we had some ice cream. Then around 1:30 I went to bed and on Monday woke up at 7:45.

So Now I'm tried but hyper sorta. My weekend was really really good.

How was yours?
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O.k. I know this whole depress and mad thing is old, and I'm trying to work on it. Monday I'll post something happy and up beat.

I hope all of you have a fun weekend. And some Summer.

We were never
Real friends

You never knew
The real me

We fight all
The time

We were friends
But you never
Did anything for

You have no
Real friends

And you try
Not to be

You don’t know
How to treat
A real friend


They lend you
Stuff but
You don’t give
It back

You’re not there
We they need you

But they have to
Be there for you
All time

You over react
All the time

When it’s nothing
You turn it into

Something

You are your own enemy.


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