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Hey, How are you guys.
I'm ok I miss High Point.
There's not much going on in my life right now, just want to say Hi.
Me and Jessi will come and visit when the weather gets better.
I hope to hear from you guys.
See you soon
Becca

I paint my face
And pretend like
Everything it alright

I put on a smile
So you can’t tell
What is wrong

I close my eyes and
Look away
So you won’t
See the tears

I try to hide my
Mistakes and fears
And pretend it
Doesn’t Hurt

Because I know you don’t
Care about what
I have to say
Or what is wrong

You’re crying
Cause you think it
Will help

It just causes more
Pain

You laugh so hard
You can’t breathe

You think it work
But then you catch
Your breath

You can’t ease the
Pain
It’s not that easy

Regrets come and haunt you
Things come and stay
Even if you want them to leave

You bury things just
So you can go back and
Found them again

You can’t leave things
Alone or unbroken

No matter how
Hard you try

A little random

One of the most powerful things at least in my opinion is laughter. Here's why.
When you are laughing you forget about the bad for as long as you are laughing your mind is not thinking about the pain, well for the most part. Laughing is a way of letting things go. Mean laughing can cause other problems such as coughing or chest pain or headaches or trouble breathing but it feels good to laugh. Laughing makes me feel better. Laughing makes me happy and most times hyper.
I love laughing and for those who know me well know that I can laugh for a while and at strange times.
This is what works for me, so it might not be the same for you.
That's all I have to say.
Have a good day.

Mind over matter

A fact of life
And time
Combined

The state of mind
That I need to be

Peace and at ease
Clam and stable

And free of pain
And worry

Free of sorrow
And anger

So what do you think?

The rain carries a new pain

It used to be something
That I found delight in

It used to be nice

The way the air smelled
It remind of those starry
Summer nights

Playing in the street
Playing in the sand

The rain reminds me of
Everything I did
Everything we had

The good
The bad

The rain carries a new pain
Of both good and bad
New and old

It makes me sad
But brings me
Happiness

It takes me back
To years ago

Easier said than done

Why is it so hard to let go
I know it’s over
But I can’t let go

I want to fix this
But I don’t know how

Don’t know why but
I can’t let go

I can’t forget you
I don’t know
What I want

I don’t know why

I hate fighting
But I can’t get
Over it

I made a mistake
What’s done is done

So why do I want
To go back and fix it

Secrets

We have our movies
We have our shows
And we have are songs

We have stuff we call us
We have stuff that we
Don’t share

We have our secrets
Some we share
Some we keep

Some are shallow
And some we buried
Deep inside

Some are dying to live
Or hurt you till you do

Some you want to tell
And then there are some
You want no one to know

Some secrets you rather
Forget

Some you want your
Friends to know

We all have our secrets
Some are to keep
Some we can tell

Some are good and
Some are bad

Some make you happy
Some make you sad

We all have secrets
We all have something
That we can keep
And call our own

Talked to you

I didn’t want to start
A fight so I tried
To keep my mouth
Shut

That’s how it started
I should of just
Told you from the
Start

Now I don’t know
What to do

How to act
Or what to say
To you

We were friends
I could never
Please you
And I never will

I don’t want to fight
Again
Not over this
Not with you

I should have told
You and then maybe
None of this would
Have started

bridges

I’m on a bridge
And I can’t seem
To stay of

I get off
And then I’m
Forced back on

I try to burn it down
But it keeps coming
Back

It breaks my heart more
And more cause I can’t
Seem to fix it

The bridge has many
Thing on it
That means so much

But for me it brings
Sadness and pain

All of the
Objects seem to be
Broken

It reappears
And reopens
And deepens the
Cuts it made before

I'm not sure if all of it fits together. What do you think?

stranger in my own home

I’ve lived here for
For so many years

But now I feel
Uneasy every time
I walk through that
Door

I don’t like I’m
Safe here anymore

I feel like a
Stranger more and
More

Why can’t I
Just shut the door

I don’t want your
Cold hard stare

Cause it’s not like
Before

Now more then ever
I feel like a stranger
In my own home

Untouchable Beauty

You hear the guys talk
About her all the time

Everyone wants her
They’re too afraid too
Let her know

No one can seem to
Get her attention

Guys may want to say
Something but
They bit their lip
Instead

She wants the attention
But not from everyone

She’s untouchable
Unattainable
But she feels unwanted

No one tells her
Cause they think
She knows

So what do you think?

Anything new with you?

Past, Present, and Future

For every tear that comes down
A thousand more follow

As I sit here thinking
Of what to do
And what I’ve done

Who I was
And who I’ve become

About what path to take
The one I’ve taken
The one I’m on
And the one I should choose

For every tear that comes down
A thousand more will follow

Along with a thought
Of each and everyone of you

Love hate relationship

You said you love me
Then you shut the door

I say I hate you
And we kiss some more


We yell and we scream
And fight more and more
So I leave and you follow

And we talk till night

We love each other but sometimes
It’s just too much

The stress in our lives
Take a hold of us

We have a love hate
Relationship

That breaks my

Heart

I made a small change to the ending.

the other way around

You look at her

She has flawless skin
And is the perfect size

And with those
Big brown eyes

The girl some guys
Would kill to have

She likes you but
You don't care

You like the girl that's
Invisible to the world

You look at her and
You see the pain in her eyes
You know there is a secret
Inside of her

That you want to know
She’s all you can think about

She sees you but doesn’t feel
That way for you

it’s the other way
this time

Instead of the girl
It’s the guy that
Feel that way
Inside

You’re invisible
To her

It’s the other way around
This time

Your help

She’s unstable
You aren’t helping

She needs you
But you aren’t there

She’s on the verge
Of self destruction

So why not help her
Instead of laying around

She needs a friend
Right now

Not someone
Bringing her down

So help her up
And maybe she’ll
Stay here

Instead of running
Around

She’s unstable
Can’t you see that?

She needs your help
You can’t change that

You’re her friend
And she needs you
Now

This reminds me of a song, but I'm not sure what song. Anyway I hope you like it, and like my last poem it's not about someone or for someone in particular it’s just some thing that popped into my head.

Someone to lean on

A thousand tear drops
Fall on your bed
You don’t seem to notice

Tear drops fall fast then
Words to a mouth

You can’t think
You don’t know
How to stop them

You don’t know
How to be happy
Anymore

You are feeling
Cold all the time
You can’t fix it

You can’t get rid of it
Even if you try

It won’t go away
You have too much
Pride to get help

You don’t want to
Get help cause
You don’t want
A lot of people to
Know

A thousand tear drops
Fall on your bed
You don’t seem to notice

Till someone takes
Your hand

Yeah I know this is a really really sad poem. There is no speicfic reason why I wrote this. It was the only thing I could put into words. Right now anyway. I'm going to try to write somthing happy, but it might take some time.

Contradiction

I want to talk to you
But I don’t want to
I just want to yell
So I keep my mouth shut

I want to say what
Is really on my mind
But I don’t want
To get you mad

I want to tell you the
Truth
But I’m scare of what
You might say

I want to be mad
But I don’t like that
Feeling

I’m sick of being sad
But nothing seems to
Help

I don’t like being by
Myself
But friends doesn’t
Seem to work

I don’t like being isolated
But I don’t care much for
Groups anymore

I like music
But it makes
Me sad

I don’t like this
Feeling inside

But it doesn’t seem to
Go away

I’m not sure what
To do or what to say

Wasted and Forgotten

All those years wasted
All those memories just
Forgotten

Thrown out
And you don’t care
Why

You forgotten me
You left me behind

Should I fight this or
Should I let it be
And forget it

I don’t know
What to do

All that time we
Used to spend
Just hanging out

It’s all wasted
And forgotten

anything

Tell me a secret
Tell me a lie

Tell me anything
So I know
Something inside

You tell one thing
I heard another

Tell me the truth

I’ll tell you a secret
I’ll tell you a lie

I’ll say what you
Want to hear

You say one thing
I’ll say another

I heard one thing
You heard another

Nothing is left
Nothing but the truth

The truth that you
Hind from me